I had dreams.
We had been together for 4 years. This is not a news to our friends, but it is a new thing to our family. We did not mean to hide it from them, there is a lot of story in between. I truly apologize that I could not say it out. But since we had already graduated, it's about time to announce to them. Afraid, Nervous, Happy... All kind of feeling mixed up. But I am glad I have you in my life. You are not handsome, I am not pretty. But we are both handsome, pretty, cute in each other eyes. I guess this is love.
Last night, the first dream I have related to you and your family. This is probably due to your mom knew about us last few days. In the dream, you bring me to your house. I get to meet your family first time. I was nervous in the dream. I am afraid that they do not like me. Turn out, they just treat me normally. Not many question. Somehow, I does not wish other to dig my privacy. I do accept other's care through question. But there is always a limit in questions. I have met three person that ask question in a way I do not like. But I am happy, in the dream, your family turns out to be very nice. Thanks you, my love.
Second dream I have is about some character I used to address myself and have already forgotten for few years. Vampire. Vampire has always been my favorite character which I used it to represent me during my down time. Cold, alone, but always a cool guys in handling thing. This is a person I wish to become. Not to say drink blood. But a vampire characteristics is the thing I found it very interesting. Vampire is cold and alone. But they have the ability to solve things, they can be very generous in offering you their help, even though people scare of them, they can be cool as they have already used to be ignore, used to be alone. I wish I can be as strong as them, where I don't mind to be alone and I can handle thing myself.
The dream is about my lover is a vampire. I am not afraid of vampires' family where all of them is vampire. Because when my hand is being hold by my lover, a vampire. I know they would not hurt me. Perhaps is the love? I am always the careless one. I would always seem like I could not do some simple thing well in front of my lover. In that dream, I feel the love from my lover. Somehow, he just looks like you. You used to always say me cant do thing well and help me. But when you wanted to offer me help, I will suddenly found the ways. I guess, I miss you.
Vampire, and you. You and vampire. You have made me a small girl in front of you. I glad you found me. I glad I have you. I love you.
